Wednesday 3 November 2010

day 3 ...... lest see how we going

good morning/afternoon all
well its the 3rd November today would love to say im doin really really well but that would be a lie, still eating bad things but tryin my hardest not too, just had toast for breakfast then a pasta snack pot for me din din not too bad suppose, better than most of the junk i eat, but hey small steps and all that.  Also have just put me metalic toe rings back on got them off ebay couple months back, wore them for a couple weeks and took them off, really not sure what they are actually suppsed to do just says balance out your body etc etc, and lots of other gobbly goosh i dont understand lol, but ill give them another try also went into town yesturday and walked there which is good rather than wait for the bus, in me spare room also have me exercise bike which doubles as a clothes horse, so gonna get that sorted and try do a little on that maybe 3 or 4 times a week for stars, like we say better to take tiny little steps than one big complete tuen in one full wack, as im sure if i did that like i said before wud totally rebel and go back the other way, anyway will keep u posted and hopefully keep me self motivated and write again soon, will preoberly write a little more later on my history and what ive tried over the years and that x

Monday 1 November 2010

Now for the boring bit ALL ABOUT ME

Well suppose shud really tell  you som ebits about meself, people who know me will already know this am sure, but if others are gonna look then this is for you.

DOnt want to tell you all me secrects but heres just a little taster.

I was born in Northampton and moved to Whitby and stayed at a boarding school i have friends from all over due to this, and i now live in Blackpool, which is supposed to be the party capital of the North or so im told, i do go out a lot and enjoy having fun and laughs, although my weight holds me back in a lot of ways, ie not being able to dance like i want, not being able to wear what i ant etc etc, and people who dont know you can be very horrible over the years have had very many comments some very hurtfull, would love to say this is the insentive that has made me want to do it, loose weight get healthy and all that , but nope ususlly just have a good cry, grin and bare it, pick meslef up rub meslef down and start all over again(ooooo i feeel a song comin on lol ) you will egt used to my random outburst. 

One comment i got last week when me and a friend was in a take away after a nice night out, come on be far we all need cheey chips at teh end of th nigth dont we, and yes i totally agrre they are bad but in moderation and that we should all have a little treat, because at the end of the day if we deprive ourselves too much am sure we will end up pushing the other way and rebelling and having more than we would have in the first place or is that just me he he, anyway back to the comment, i felt good about myslef we had all had a good night was laughing and giggling with people in the place, then someone walked in and my friend said to him, "omg will u pleasssssssssseeeeeeeeeee take her away she doin me head in" all laughs and giggles, then he just looked at and said "no thanx i dont want to go on a trampoline" and as you can guess the laughter stopped nad i thought what a dick head, but hey thats life and you just get on with it, no one hasd the right to take the micky out of anyone, more so if they dont know them, but unfortunatelly there are unkind people all over the world day in and day out, making people unhappy. 
I am not choosing to do this for them and to make them feel better but for myself and for my health and to make me feel better.

Anyway reckon ive wrote enogh for now latas tatas hope to chat soon x

and so it begins >>>>>>>>>>>>

Today is the 31st october 2010 and i am 38 years old and i weigh 22 stone and i am 5 foot 5 and in one year and 2 months on 31st december 2011 i will be 40 years old, and the way i am and the state i am in now as i write this i do not want to be the person i am now i want to be fab and forty and hopefully my life will finally begin and i will be the perosn i have always wanted to be.

I am new at this and to be honest unsure what to actually do and say but im sure i can blag it and hopefully will get some fans (or what ever the term is on here ) along the way.

I wrote that little bit at the top yesturday and today is the 1st November and my head is as clear as it can be and i want to get help advise and a miracle cure if at all possible, i no i am the only one that can do this and i want to be realistic, that is why i am giving myself a year and 2 months to loose half of by body weight which will be approx 11 stone, im not saying it will definatly happen and im not saying it wont, all i am saying to friends family and anyone else who wants to come along for the ride im gonna give it a good shot, i dont want to look back in another years time and me another sotne or two heavier and more unhappy as i will only have myself to blame.

I wont be blogging every day but i will put some pics on and i will tell you of my process, and every now and then will give you some info on me as a person what i like dislike etc, my emotions and well you get the gist.

So please join me , if anyone is in the same boat im happy to help in what ever way that i can, im not going to a slimming club, and for the moment im not goin to be joining a gym although i will soon  fingers crossed, all im doin for now is tryin to get the control back onto my life form the food, rather than the food control me xxx